Over the last few weeks, Shane and I have been on a roller coaster of emotions. We left the home church we had been members of for 4 years. we felt comfortable there. Things were too good to get away from. Then changes happened and it was a stark realization that nothing is as clear cut as we think it is or should be. We were comfy in our little warm bed of church and friends. We felt at home there. But then we felt the big hand of God picking us out of the crowd we liked to hide in the middle of. We have felt like our calling is at a different place for a while, but were unable to pull away from our home church because to leave would be to let ourselves feel vulnerable and open to the world , instead of in the closeness of our church family.
It felt lonely out here with no "family" to turn to. We felt like outsiders looking in waiting for our next stop in the game of Life. How many spaces before it is time to stop and rest again? What does God have in store for us? Are we just going to be drifting from one place to another in search of this new home? HOw long until we find it?
I ask these questions and pray. But I had to stop the other day and look up and say, "okay God, I get it. We have to stop and look up and have faith that You have all the answers and it isn't up to us. We will have faith that You will lead us to the place where you want us to stop and rest again."
In all of this, my friends from our previous home have been in touch with me, making me feel so much better. I of course, assumed they would want nothing to do with us and never talk to us again. But on the contrary, they have been awesome, encouraging and loving. I couldn't ask for better friends.
This path we are on is scary but having faith in God and friends to cheer us on the whole way is comforting to no end.
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